aN uNexPecteD texT

yesterday i got a text from a very known person, a person dat i never expected to text me again after all dat we've been through. he ask me to meet him which i know is not rite since we're not even talking rite now. why now?and why all of a sudden?is he using me or is he really sincere to meet his old fren or wat so called his ex. i had my doubts so i decided not to meet him. my heart is dying to meet him but when i thought back and the words he said to me....naaah...i'm done and it's over. i know him....after 6 six years of friendship...i hope i can survive and win the battle between my own heart~the end

to win someone's heart back takes wisdom and courage

mine was gone when i did that

KesiAN mY SiS

yesterday my sis went for an operation. at first i didnt thought it would be dat serius but it is. she had to went through an open surgery from doing the laser thingy. she has this thing wat we call endomethrosis. quite severe but i didnt excpect her to have it. but at least she's alrite. dat's wats important....DONT WORRY ALONG.....we will ALWAYS BE THERE =)

So CaLLEd FreN

i just had to spill out wat i felt.....cannot take it anymore...6 years of being a fren...nothing....ur not worth it to her....she's just using u and pretending to be innocent...looking like i'm the bad girl here. i don't understand. are boys so much important to her in her life...i mean of cozla they're charming but doesn't a frenship mean nothing to u. when u hav no one, u come crawling to the ladies fren...but if there's a guy, POOOF....of she goes. it's not the first time she does dat. i think it's the 5TH time but during the first time, i didn't care so much....becoz i didn't know her yet back then. NOW I KNOW. so irritating. the GEDIKS dat she shows to men without relizing...i'm not the only one who says dis...even the guys says dis...so wat i think is definitely TRUE. but the weird thing is, she can say to other gurls.....EEEEEE.....GEDIKNYE....without relizing herself...i'm sory i hav to say dis but i think u should know...dats wat frens are. she looks like she is tough and 'ganas'...with her eyes like an animal staring at their prey...always like to jeling at people showing her eyes....and then people will go....nape ko jeling aku...and then she would like it....of cozla...attracting men's attraction. GROSS. come onla...it's not only about guys here...is dat wat she only thinks about....no wonder la my other fren decided not to become her fren anymore...its becoz of dis...before they were like twins who would go anywhere together but all of a sudden, their relationship vanish. at first i thought it was becoz of my enemy fren but it's all becoz of herself. now people call her the PLAYGIRL...everywhere she goes, a man would be there waiting...maybe she's lucky to hav sooooo many guys adoring her becoz of her sweetness, comel die, perangai manje die but she must remember....guys like her for a reason and in the end...she'll might deserve wat she did to other people...especially her BF ~the end

ReDempTion

dear bloggie...today, at dis moment i'm feeling really sad...all of a sudden...i felt like i've done the worst mistakes ever in my life...i hav so many secrets in my life dat i can't tell....dis is how my life was and is still are...i didnt mean for dis things to happen...it just did...and i can't turn back...the only thing dat i can do now is never repeat it...INSAF...some things can't be avoided..some things can...we just hav to hav the guts to do it....with the help of others around us...and the most important thing is ourselves. we hav to learn from other people's mistakes....people were not born to be MAKSUM...but it is not an excuse to do mistakes....we may walk on the wrong path but one day, we must realize dat we hav to walk back on the correct path...our lives on this earth is not forever....at any time, the clock is ticking...we may not know when we will be going but we must prepare ourselves at all time....i hope dat my talk of redemption is for real....i really mean it but i just need time~the end

At LaST

at last....i finished my FHT...after 7 month of hell....it was a tough one going through all the things pouring and draning on my face...i get to feel a little freedom after my exam....going out in the middle of the nite (curi2 jgk), didnt hav to prep, didnt hav to rollcall and especially didnt hav to THINK....so far the 0ne week was enough to release my tension all dis while...although dat before the exam i had to face wif big problems dat occcured here n there...fuuuuhhhh..RELIEF. i hope dis will last long enough for me to really experience the freedom life...i do envy the outsiders. didnt hav to bother about wat people think, didnt hav to take part in anything, didnt hav to be social and the most important part....DIDNT HAV TO BODEK2. bodek has become a culture now in human's life to gain something, to become a part of something big...less work but much talking....dats all wat they did....i hate those kind of people...pity them who has work really hard but no one was to keen to see them. they only see the ACTOR.....dats y i dont get human...terkeluar topik pulak....anyway..after dis, i'll be posting out from my previous squadron dat i dont enjoy so much staying...not dat i hate it but i didnt seem to fit in.it was nvr a place for me. i want to be at home...six years of living someplace else...i think it's finally the time for me to be at my home..ALLAH...please place me in the right place where i can find my life and be in the correct path...AMIN~the end

LiVing Like aLmost To HeLL

i hate it here....i wana go home....ari2 tension....seeing my frens getting scolded...hearing unappropriate language....aaarrghhhh...it really gives me the headache...cant i get a peace and quiet surrounding over here.....people do hav a life okey...dont treat us like we're kindergartens....i mean kids also get treated nicely....we're 24 for heaven's sake. i don't understand why dis world exist wif dis kind of people....TOTALLY UNREASONABLE.....tink they're always rite....cannot see others live peacefully n hepily...am i gona spend my lifetime like dis...i reaaly dont want it =(

MaHer ZaiN

now i'm totally in love wif dis new singer...i mean i love his song...the 1st song i got attracted was 'ALWAYS BE THERE'......it was a hit...it caught my soul...so sweet and meaningful...when i was d0wn, dis song was able to make me strong....stand up f0r myself...bec0z it taught me to love wat we're suppose to love...how i know dis s0ng?it was a wake up call f0r my sister...she used it as her alarm and ape lagi...when i heard it, i kept repeating it over and over
again...bestnyeee......he's coming to malaysia...i wana go but tatau blh ke tak..hrp2 blh...amin~

a sudden thOught

y did u have to lie.....was it so hard for you to say dat u didnt l0ve me anymore???

SukA sUki

BouT mE

ON THE OUTSIDE IM SMILING BUT IN THE INSIDE IM CRYING

PLZ UNDERSTAND

i dono wats got into me...really...why the sudden change...i didnt ask for it but it came...i knew it was coming anyway...but i put it aside hoping dat everything would be alrite...but as time passes, it didnt turn out the way i want it to be...it became worse...becoz it involves other peoples feelings...i didnt meant it to happen...now i feel really guilty...i wish i didnt take dat step from the beginning. now everybody's gona get hurt...i always ask myself...whether to hurt my heart or someone's. if i chose to hurts others, its not fair for them but if i choose to hurt myself...i will nvr be happy...i can act happy and be a hypocrite for the rest of my life but i dont want dat to happen....it really is not fair...FOR ME....now wat i want is just ME AND FREEDOM. I WANT MY LIFE BACK....my life where i dont have to tink about anyone except my family and my career..im in a stress zone now....would someone help...i hope dat someone would understand....sometime we have to face the sadness in our life although its gona hurt badly....wat im doing is to make sure you wont get hurt in the future...TRUST ME....im not for you...no one is~the end

d0n't feel the same way

i don't know wat got in my mind....but i just don't feel the same way...i tried but i can't keep lying...whether i break the heart or torture mine...wat do i have to do to make it alright?to make it better....if we chose to say it out....people will tink dat we are selfish but if i keep it in my heart, dat would make me a liar...i really don't know wat to do....i don't want anymore of dis...i want it to go away...i want a life where i can live my life....JUST ME.....dis cannot prolonge any longer...i hav to tell dat person...for the sake of his and for the sake of mine....I'M REALLY SORRY~the end

not awake

today...again...me and my fren didn't wake up to go to work....we woke up at 7.10a.m....argghhhh...WE'RE LATE....the first sentence i said....what happen..we slept early...penat sgtkah? i dono..all i know is i'm late...and the worse part is i didn't iron my clothes yet....mmg gile kelam kabut...good thing we have our fren BOB to pick us up~the end

n0 idea

it's been l0ng since i haven't write...got to say i'm bz...well not dat bz..kinda bz..yeah..bz...i am going to start flying now..flying the big aircraft..i really miss flying the PC-7...doing the manouvres...flying in ALOR STAR...i want to go back there....my life was there where i started all my achievements. the place full of history..bad or good...here...i'm happy but there's something missing and i can't figure it out...rase mcm da lme xblk...miss my home...miss my mum and dad, sisters and brother. dis coming raye...my whole family would be there...including my lil sis at jordan bc0z she is usually not around during the raye season..dis time we gona has a blast..but they plan on g0ing to singap0re...SINGAPORE...and i won't be able to j0in...sedihnye...dl dorg pg jordan p0n xleh ikut....bilela nk merasa life operational...ermmm..i just hope for it...but i always remember...nvr put ur hopes to high~the end

CILI

tonite..me and my fren tira went on a mission..a mission dat no one has ever did bef0re...we put on our shoes and bought nothing else but a handphone. we look at the line..whether it's clear or not. there were a few people but it didn't matter...A MISSION IS STILL A MISSION...we have to proceed...walking slow...we sneak out into the dark...with our feet on the wet ground..we kept on walking until at last...we reached our target....OUR KEBUN....we want CILI....those little spicy cili for our maggi...hehe..our mission has accomplished...the end~

the cheat and the lie

yesterday i f0und 0ut b0ut s0mething. s0mething i new bef0re f0r centurys but was t0 reluctant t0 believe. why????bec0z i trusted him...and in the end..i'm hurt..badly...it will take time t0 rec0ver but i will try =(. i will n0t tell everything here bc0z dats n0t my way 0f d0ing s0. i h0pe he's happy f0r d0ing all th0se things t0 me~the end

wAke Up CaLL

these tw0 days, me and my friend w0ke up late. aaaarrrggghhhh....bgn2je...ALAMAK....da 6.30, bas da dtg, da 7.30. we were supp0se t0 wake up at 6.00. the bus arrives at 6.30. i d0n't kn0w why dat happens. nk kate td0 lambat, tadela lambat sgt. huhu...bgn dalam keadaan terkejut. can get a heart attack. and 0ur r00m's a mess. usually when we wake every m0rning, we'll d0 the beds, tidy 0ur r00m and prepare everything neatly. but, these two days became HAVOK. mungkin sbb xbace d0a k0t..huhu...i tink i have t0 get a bigger cl0ck...=)

S0mething To THinK Ab0uT

suddenly i felt sad b0ut myself....really sad....i realized dat we d0n't hav much time in dis w0rld.why are we b0thering t0 impress 0urselves and 0thers while we kn0w everything d0esn't last. everthing is called lusk. we kn0w it but we still d0 it...WHY???? h0w i wish dat i was da 0ld me. where i didn't care b0ut fashi0n, style, bf's, m0ney, s0cialize and l0ts m0re dat d0esn't bring any benefit t0 me. i just want t0 spend my time with my family. the things dat i'm really afraid 0f is if i wake up 0ne m0rning and finding 0ut dat 0ne 0f them is n0t here anym0re. dis all came t0 me in a sudden th0ught. h0w t0 change my life with0ut having t0 pretend anym0re. h0w t0 d0 things where i'm n0t attach t0 rules n regulati0ns. i want 0ut. i want freed0m. when will i get dat? i miss my life bef0re....please give me th0se time back and i'll treasure it f0rever~the end

th0Se Days

while d0ing n0thing, i decided t0 write...feeling b0red and c0ld...many ideas can appear. n0w i've bec0me addicted t0 bl0gging. i like reading and write. many things we can xpl0re. in dis situati0n..it kind 0f gets me reminded 0f da past. during my childh00d, my sch00l time, my hard time and last but n0t least my happy time. during a kid, i always like t0 'berangan'. i'm usually cepat terpengaruh ngn m0vies s0 everytime after watching any m0vies, i tend t0 c0py their style. c0py what they d0. d0esnt's matter if pe0ple call me c0pycat. i just d0 it bec0z i ad0re it. was dat supp0se t0 be a c0mpliment. i d0n't kn0w if 0thers tink dat its embarassing. t0 me, if s0me0ne f0ll0ws my style, i'd be very happy and pr0ud. i still remember after watching jurassic park. dat time me and my family live in England. i ad0re the lady s0 much dat i decided t0 dress up as her. i als0 did a litlle acting. jumping and running ar0und the h0use like as it was a jungle. turning da s0fas int0 r0cks and trees. making da pill0ws as din0saurs or whats0ever. hahaha. my sister AL0NG kept teasing me. she always d0 bec0z i always d0 weird stuff. but s0metimes she als0 j0ins me. it was fun. s0metimes i miss th0se days. when i tink back, i laugh t0 myself. mmg klaka and kdg2 terase mcm 0rg b0d0. but...wh0 cares. i was a kid. kids are inn0cent rite? MR BEAN als0 became 0ne 0f my fav0urites. all 0f my siblings w0uld take part in dis acting except f0r my y0unger br0ther wh0 d0esn't understand anything yet. he just w0nders ar0und and kcau2 ktrg. we did the MERRY CHRISTMAS scene. dengan penuh semangat, we made fire crackers, m0dified 0ur bedr00m int0 MR BEAN'S bedr00m. anything t0 make it da same. there was always ideas. blh dikatakan my siblings and me sume kreatif....huhu...tapekan puji diri sendiri..hehe. da settle sume, the camera r0lled. tapi tade p0n camera. just simulate. and when da acting finished we w0uld end up tired and fall asleep 0r c0ntinue t0 d0 0ther stuff. but dat was n0t da end. there's still m0re. just waiting f0r its turn. H0W I WISH I C0ULD TURN BACK TIME. BEING AN INNOCENT KID.....the end~

BeauTin0uS

t0day after class and exam, me and my friend tira had a conversati0n ab0ut h0w beautiful 0ur seni0r is. mmg cantek. like a face where u c0uld see it in the japan c0mics. BIG EYES, THIN LIPS, WHITE SKIN. she was everything like dat. me and tira c0uldn't st0p l00king at her while she was teaching. OMG. ALLAH MAHA BESAR. if a girl like me cann0t take my eyes 0f her, d0n't say da men. s0me lucky guy...hehe...neways after dat, we c0ntinue talking b0ut artist inner seas and 0verseas. biasela, kalau p0mpuan bercerita, akan meleret sampai t0pik nth pape nth. huhu.....first we talked b0ut da white pe0ple. americans and british. NICOLE KIDMAN, CAMERON DIAZ, MONICA BELLUCI nd etc. S0 many beautys. tatau nk sebut yg mane. sexy eyes, sexy lips, h0t b0dy....w0w. i'm like a lesbian..hahaha...then we went 0n b0ut hindustan plak. PREITY ZINTA was 0ur first ch0ice. then JUHI CHAWLA, SONALI, RANI, AISHWARYA. kutuk megutuk dan puji memuji. mexic0ns plak.....SCARLET 0RTEZ annndddd........tu jela yg ingat name. hehe..lasty...da arabians. as beuatiful as....nthla...tatau nk ckp.sume sgtla cantek..i used t0 like this singer name NAWAL. but she wasn't dat fam0us. pe0ple kn0w PASCHAL m0re. s0metimes i w0nder. where d0 they get their faces? h0w did they end up like dat? fr0m ADAM and HAWA, t0 many races and differnt c0l0urs. sgtla unik bile dipk blk. if i die, i w0uld like t0 see h0w dis happen. fr0m 0ur ancest0rs until n0w. t0 th0se wh0 granted with beauty pls be grateful bec0z anytime ALLAH can take them away. BEAUTY IS MORTAL~the end

BuaH BeLimBing SaRawak

ini adalah buah yg dipanggil buah belimbing f0r da sarawakians.taste like buah rambai but i d0n't even kn0w what a rambai is...hahaha...t0 me it just taste like buah langsat but less tastier.i prefer langsat m0re.it l00ks like strawberry but bigger.and we cann0t it da skin.its da first time i ever seen dis kind 0f fruit.if datng sarawak, pls try =)

dissap0inted

a call and a text just t0 ask f0r a letter f0rmat...hrrmmmm..=(

mY ArT w0Rk

dis pic kt ats ade makne tersendiri.so many smpai xlarat nk tulis.dats y just lukis.i'm n0t an artist but just learning t0 d0 a little art.hehe...

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B0R0S

t0day....i'm boros lg. i b0ught a new handph0ne. N0kia N97 mini. sgtla cantek..hehehe.br0nze c0l0ur. yg lame nk bg adik. lately, i bec0me s0 shopah0lic. alwayz wanting t0 buy s0mething. aritu kt kuching i da b0ught bag 4 myself and sis, kasut 4 my br0ther, kek lapis and terubuk 4 my familys and instruct0rs. it c0st me ab0ut 1000+. 0MG.....absla. where am i g0nna find m0ney t0 pay th0se thing. everthing i swipe. tula bahayenye guna kredit card...but i tink i can still manage. tunggu elaun flying masuk. settle sume. hehehe.sejak akhir2 ni, i like buying stuff 4 my l0ve 0nes. i jst dont mind. sumenye yg branded plak tuh..dl kedekut. yela. dl tade dwet. skrg b0lehla. s0 bile lg nk blnje kn. i enj0y giving them gifts....nt nk kumpul dwet beli rumah plk..huhu~

UnFair

an0ther 5 days f0r the big day...and then 0f back t0 kuching...=(. we r ab0ut t0 get 0ur wings and at last my friend hilmi can als0 get his wing. after s0 much hardness dat he had t0 g0 through. but my 0ther friend c0uldnt get his. due t0 s0me things dat he did 0r didnt d0. Allah Maha Mengetahui. f0r 0ur parade, we had t0 combine with my juni0r c0urse. h0w lucky are they. 1 year plus in PLTB they can get 0ut already. 0urs was ab0ut 2 years. s000000 unfair. but what can we d0. alwayz da victim. but we learn t0 accept dat. anyway, they were also 0ur ex-c0ursemate during da cadets time. but...i became mad when the best 0verall result didnt g0 t0 my c0urse. but t0 theirs. wtf....h0w can it be like dat. are they blind. i mean was 0ur life there mean n0thing. after all th0se ragging. senior didnt m0nit0r, seni0r lack 0f c0ntr0l, seni0r did dis, seni0r did dat.....and lastly da juni0rs t00k da name. mane b0leh cmtu...xadil...mmgla c0mbine c0urse tp they sh0uld c0nsider dat we were 1st t0 finish at PLTB. if i kn0wn i might as well extend myself during da academics. xpyh blaja rajin2. hidup pn sng. if arwah was still here, he will be da 0ne t0 defend us. but die da xde. we're 0n our 0wn. nasib CSE 70. a l0t 0f people blame us f0r everything. always assuming 0ur c0urse is da w0rse wherelse we didnt d0 anything t0 deserve dis. if any0ne kn0ws us....they w0uld understand.

Salah Sangka

i g0t a msg fr0m my fren saying "ktne?"i said "kt bilik.npe?" he says "td lpk ngn d0rg.ade ckp ngn muar?" i said "lpk ngn dorg sape and ckp ape ngn muar?" he says "xpela" and then i realize he was talking ab0ut what happen just n0w. muar was talking t0 the ph0ne with s0me0ne and i kcau saying dat muar is GATAL. i didn't kn0w dat he was there 0n the 0ther side. s0 he asume me 0f being with muar. n0w i get it. BURUK SANGKA AND ASSUMING is a different thing. i think dat he is buruk sangka with me. but i cann0t av0id dat. its his brain and his th0ughts. i'm n0t a c0ntr0ller and he's n0t a r0b0t. tp xpe...me sll buruk sangka kt die jgk..hehe =)

just g0t back fr0m Sg Batang Air wt dinghi drill.perjalanan yg mengambil masa selama 3 jam lbh.ddk dlm bas xleh td0 jd b0rak2la smbil bermaen msg. s000ooo BORING.ble sampai trs amik gmbr . tp best jgk dpt mandi dalam air empangan..airnye hijau. jernihla jgk. dapat tgk padi huma iaitu padi yg ditanam di atas bukit. rupenye c0l0r beras tu itam. mcm pulut. xlalu plak nk mkn. nasi putih pn da sdp. ktrg td0 dlm khemah. mule2 nk td0 dlm bas sbb lg best. ade aircond dan luas cket. tp ktrg dihalau td0 dlm khemah. alasan???takut xbgn esok pg. NTAH APE2 NTAH. lps tu ktrg pn msk cpt2 dlm khemah dan trs td0.tkt kne pggl ngn sape2. k0l 4 terbgn. tgk2 baju basah. apekehe plk bsh ni. xkn kencing k0t. huhu....rupe2nya khemah b0c0r. die xkalis air tp serap air. tensi0n gle. td0la dlm keadaan basah dan sejuk. nasib baekla i ni jenis blh td0 dlm keadaan apepun. ktrg td0 smpi k0l 7. dan ktrgla yg plg last bgn. anak dara ape nth. xpeduli asalkan dpt td0 ngn cukup. bgn2 terus berus gg dan bukak khemah bersiap utk blk. disebabkan hujan menyebabkan ktrg ssh gle nk jln. seliper melekat2 dkt tanah. seliper jd mcm kst yg org pki utk pijak sn0w. lawak gle. jln2 kjp selipar trtgl dan terlekat kt tanah. hahaha....lps da siap kms semula, mandi dan terus blk. penat gle wlpn exercise kjp je....=)

Suatu Kehilangan

yesterday....the day dat i will never f0rget. the day 0f tragic. the day 0f sadness. the day 0f 0ur l0st. a bel0ved instruct0r. wh0 taught us fr0m zer0 t0 having a career. a pil0t. he was a man 0f h0nor and respect. he was like a father t0 us. wh0 was always with us. thr0ugh happy and sadness. a teacher. wh0 taught us everthing dat we had t0 kn0w. a br0ther. wh0 was always there t0 talk t0 us and share experiences. i still remember back in al0r star, he was always hanging ar0und with my c0ursemate. in a place what we called bfs. nescafe ice...he w0uld say after each s0rtie. i als0 remember h0w he always said ab0ut h0w he wanted t0 die. die in a unif0rm. die in a respective way. and Allah fulfill his wish. but we didn't aspect dat it w0uld be dis s00n. he als0 said dat after he c0mpleted 0ur course in flying, he will finish his duty. and it's true. we g0t 0ur wings and we l0st him. we didn't even get t0 say thanks and g00dbye t0 y0u sir. its been 3 weeks since we the transp0rt pil0t didn't see y0u....:(. if 0nly we were in al0r star and didn't c0me yet t0 kuching...we c0uld see him f0r the last time. until n0w, i still cann0t accept the fact dat he's n0t in dis w0rld anym0re. lets all sedekah al-fatihah. sem0ga r0hnya diberkati dan dirahmati Allah. amin. he left dis w0rld with a wife and 3 childrens. and all 0f them are still little. the y0ungest. wh0 was 0nly b0rn last year. kesian betul dkt dorg. i h0pe dat they can carry 0n with their lives and s0meday kn0w what a great and caring father they had. MEJ MOHD ZULRIHAN BIN JUSOH RMAF. a name dat will always be remembered in the diary 0f c0use 70. the gryph0n. when thinking 0f y0ur name, tears roll d0wn my cheek. Thank y0u sir. f0r helping us get 0ur wing and f0r really understanding the life 0f CSE 70.

n0t my lucky day

two days ag0, my daily r0utine was a disaster. everything was kelam kabut. fr0m the day i w0ke up until i slept. the day start with PTU parade. ab0ut 1 h0ur we wait f0r the arrival 0f 0ur PTU. sakit tapak kaki. pkai heels kan. huhu. the parade went well. the practice was a disaster but the d-day was a blast. it ussualy w0rks dat way. after the parade we had nasi lemak and teh tarik. the teh tarik was a kick. yum yum. then after the inspecti0n and everything, we went back h0me t0 0ur mess. i dr0ve a car back with 2 instructors 0n b0ard and a friend. i dr0ve as sm00thly as i can. but....xmenjadi. bile nk parkingje. telajak sampai b0rder parking. jatuh keta ke dpn. hampeh dan memalukan. dahla mati enjin 2 kali. huhu. but dats n0t all. more embarrassing. i reverse my car s0 fast dat i hit the temb0k. ramai gile 0rg kt situ. malu gile. i hit and run. the weird thing is, we just laugh. hahahaha...what an experience. and then the wh0le day rain. and dat day, pe0ple were talking ab0ut my incident...end 0f st0ry.

rumah urut

yesterday i went f0r a massage. 0ur b0ss decided t0 take us there f0r 0ur relaxati0n since we've been w0rking the wh0le week. he t00k us t0 a place called TIENJANG. it was my sec0nd time experience. bef0re i went t0 a b0dy massage spa. c0mpared t0 yesterday, i think body spa massage is m0re fun. n0t fun exactly but 'best'. when we arrived, the first thing we did was f00t massage. all 0f us 5 ladies in 0ne r00m. treat myself with a cup 0f mil0. and watched 'slumd0g' f0r the 3rd time while being massaged. massaging is n0t dat all relaxing but painful. they will prss 0ur feet kt urat2 tertentu. sakit!!!! nk jerit tp tahanje. but the pain didn't last l0ng. lame2 jd best. 0ur massage was ab0ut 0ne h0ur. then we went t0 a sec0nd phase. b0dy massage. they t00k me t0 a r00m. JAPAN STYLE. with n0thing but music. i changed my clothes and put 0n a pajama kind 0f type. then, my massaging start. ouuwwwww.........mcm nk mati. yang paling sakit masa die urut leher. ntah urat ape ntah die picit. sakit gile. the weird thing is, i just let her d0 it. STUPID. while massaging, ayah tbe2 k0l. huhu. bgtaula th massage. hehe. the best part is the head massage. release cket tensi0n. 0ne h0ur past and the massage finish. yeay. i didn't want t0 g0 at first. SERVICE REQUIREMENT. i hate dat w0rd. lps abs ktrg p0n blk. i was hungry but they didn't take us t0 any restaurant. terus blk. xsp0rting lgsg. but i was able t0 0der mcd. hehe. and i slept with a full st0mach.

Just An0ther Day

t0day, i'm starting t0 get use t0 where i'm staying n0w. KUCHING. but still, i miss h0me...and als0 al0r star. 5 years there sure left me with l0ts 0f memories. g00d and bad. and a week at h0me was fun. da lme xrs cmtu. but during the weekends at h0me, i wasted my time sleeping and lepaking at the s0fa in the hallway. rugi betul...:(. xchitchat p0n ngn al0ng. da lme x xb0rak sme2. th0se were mem0ries during 0ur childho0d. sblm td0 mesti sembang. ntah sembang ape ntah tp mesti ade t0pik. and 0ur main t0pic is kutuk 0rg...hahaha....biasela. POMPUAN. tp mmg fun ckp psl 0rg. hehe. anyway, sambung blk t0pik. my life here is just the same. xde beza pn. still a student. sometime i als0 want t0 feel living in a place 0f freed0m. n0t just being control by rules and regulations. letih tau. padan muke. sape soh i cap jari. t0day we did a little cleanup. cleared 0ur w0rking place and 0ur mess. but my r00m is a mess. aaarrghhh.....need t0 call marry p0ppins. just a click 0f a finger, everything will be in its place...xdela sepah sgt tp brg penuh. xtau nk sumbat mne da. a l0t 0f my stuff i left behind back at my h0me. yela, ingtkn xnk gune. kan da kne bli baru. dahla, t0wel yg baru br bli asik tercabut je bulu-bulu die. tensi0n btl. when i arrive here, i didn't l0ok in da mirr0r 4 ab0ut a week. just used the wind0w. left my IKEA mirr0r behind. nti nk s0h ayah bwk. hehe. sejak ddk cni, i think i ate a l0t. bef0re i als0 ate a l0t but dis time i didn't miss any c0urse. like bef0re i will skip lunch and dinner but ate supper.n0w, i will hav them all. hehe..blhla jd gemuk cket. i want t0 gain weight.I NEED TO. the f00d here is nice but very hard t0 find yang HALAL. silap2 mkn biawak. the pe0ple.....quite friendly. they're really sup0rtive and easy t0 talk. nice!!i h0pe i will like dis place but i d0n't want t0 stay here long...:)

first 0rientati0n

today was our first day of orientation. after one week of delay...rugije..klau x msti da abs. anyway, during our orientation, we were asked about the communitee's name and etc. we could answer quite good. very empressing. only minor-minor things. while answering, we had to drink water. we manage t0 answer a l0t. dat nite, alm0st 18 glass 0r plus 0f water went d0wn 0ur thr0uts. and a tin 0f mil0. fuh..my st0mach was full. i drank and drank until suddenly, blueekkkk. 0ut they g0. my st0mach was s0 full dat i c0uldn't take an0ther zip. but like it 0r n0t, i had t0 finish the water. after i v0mmit, my others friends continued f0llowing me. hehe. biasela. klau kte npk org muntah yg len p0n akan turut muntah. the 0rientati0n finished after we all c0mpleted the traditi0n. i went back h0me and t00k a sh0wer. FREAKING C0LD. nasib baek ade air panas. lps tu, i 0pened up my lapt0p and as usual surve the internet bef0re preparing t0 sleep. but, that nite i c0uldn't sleep s0undly. because every 3 minutes, i had t0 g0 t9 the t0ilet. hehe....:).gudnite.