ReDempTion

dear bloggie...today, at dis moment i'm feeling really sad...all of a sudden...i felt like i've done the worst mistakes ever in my life...i hav so many secrets in my life dat i can't tell....dis is how my life was and is still are...i didnt mean for dis things to happen...it just did...and i can't turn back...the only thing dat i can do now is never repeat it...INSAF...some things can't be avoided..some things can...we just hav to hav the guts to do it....with the help of others around us...and the most important thing is ourselves. we hav to learn from other people's mistakes....people were not born to be MAKSUM...but it is not an excuse to do mistakes....we may walk on the wrong path but one day, we must realize dat we hav to walk back on the correct path...our lives on this earth is not forever....at any time, the clock is ticking...we may not know when we will be going but we must prepare ourselves at all time....i hope dat my talk of redemption is for real....i really mean it but i just need time~the end

At LaST

at last....i finished my FHT...after 7 month of hell....it was a tough one going through all the things pouring and draning on my face...i get to feel a little freedom after my exam....going out in the middle of the nite (curi2 jgk), didnt hav to prep, didnt hav to rollcall and especially didnt hav to THINK....so far the 0ne week was enough to release my tension all dis while...although dat before the exam i had to face wif big problems dat occcured here n there...fuuuuhhhh..RELIEF. i hope dis will last long enough for me to really experience the freedom life...i do envy the outsiders. didnt hav to bother about wat people think, didnt hav to take part in anything, didnt hav to be social and the most important part....DIDNT HAV TO BODEK2. bodek has become a culture now in human's life to gain something, to become a part of something big...less work but much talking....dats all wat they did....i hate those kind of people...pity them who has work really hard but no one was to keen to see them. they only see the ACTOR.....dats y i dont get human...terkeluar topik pulak....anyway..after dis, i'll be posting out from my previous squadron dat i dont enjoy so much staying...not dat i hate it but i didnt seem to fit in.it was nvr a place for me. i want to be at home...six years of living someplace else...i think it's finally the time for me to be at my home..ALLAH...please place me in the right place where i can find my life and be in the correct path...AMIN~the end

LiVing Like aLmost To HeLL

i hate it here....i wana go home....ari2 tension....seeing my frens getting scolded...hearing unappropriate language....aaarrghhhh...it really gives me the headache...cant i get a peace and quiet surrounding over here.....people do hav a life okey...dont treat us like we're kindergartens....i mean kids also get treated nicely....we're 24 for heaven's sake. i don't understand why dis world exist wif dis kind of people....TOTALLY UNREASONABLE.....tink they're always rite....cannot see others live peacefully n hepily...am i gona spend my lifetime like dis...i reaaly dont want it =(