a dream dat felt so real

i keep dreaming of him...wat does dat mean?am i still in luv wif him??i don't.people say dat if we keep having a dream of someone, its shows dat we always think of him.but i cant avoid to think of him can i. i mean i hav a hepi life now wif my fiancee...he's kind to me and everything. i will not do anything dat might hurt him. please leave my mind...i cant do dis anymore...it hurts and im miserable always...its not ur fault but its mine...it shows dat i havent completely erased u...i admit i cant...ur still part of my life. but i luv my fiancee now and will always do...u'll jz hav a bit of piece of my heart~

12.11.11

selamat tinggal tok...im gonna miss u...i was at yogjakarta when i got the news..al-fatihah wat arwah yg selame ni tlh byk menjage dan menyayangi kami...the last time i saw her was at kelana jaya's tabung haji...bersyukur sgt sbb dpt pegi anta tok wat haji. at least i get to see her for the last time. yes i feel so sad but yet she gets to die in Mecca and the lucky thing is while she is performing her haji. may Allah bless her..amin. lps nie blk kg akn rs sunyi bcoz she was the reason everyone was there T_T. aritu blk raye aji pon rs sunyi je kg...xsangke akn sunyi selame-lamenye. she will be remembered and semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohNya..amin.