the cheat and the lie

yesterday i f0und 0ut b0ut s0mething. s0mething i new bef0re f0r centurys but was t0 reluctant t0 believe. why????bec0z i trusted him...and in the end..i'm hurt..badly...it will take time t0 rec0ver but i will try =(. i will n0t tell everything here bc0z dats n0t my way 0f d0ing s0. i h0pe he's happy f0r d0ing all th0se things t0 me~the end

wAke Up CaLL

these tw0 days, me and my friend w0ke up late. aaaarrrggghhhh....bgn2je...ALAMAK....da 6.30, bas da dtg, da 7.30. we were supp0se t0 wake up at 6.00. the bus arrives at 6.30. i d0n't kn0w why dat happens. nk kate td0 lambat, tadela lambat sgt. huhu...bgn dalam keadaan terkejut. can get a heart attack. and 0ur r00m's a mess. usually when we wake every m0rning, we'll d0 the beds, tidy 0ur r00m and prepare everything neatly. but, these two days became HAVOK. mungkin sbb xbace d0a k0t..huhu...i tink i have t0 get a bigger cl0ck...=)

S0mething To THinK Ab0uT

suddenly i felt sad b0ut myself....really sad....i realized dat we d0n't hav much time in dis w0rld.why are we b0thering t0 impress 0urselves and 0thers while we kn0w everything d0esn't last. everthing is called lusk. we kn0w it but we still d0 it...WHY???? h0w i wish dat i was da 0ld me. where i didn't care b0ut fashi0n, style, bf's, m0ney, s0cialize and l0ts m0re dat d0esn't bring any benefit t0 me. i just want t0 spend my time with my family. the things dat i'm really afraid 0f is if i wake up 0ne m0rning and finding 0ut dat 0ne 0f them is n0t here anym0re. dis all came t0 me in a sudden th0ught. h0w t0 change my life with0ut having t0 pretend anym0re. h0w t0 d0 things where i'm n0t attach t0 rules n regulati0ns. i want 0ut. i want freed0m. when will i get dat? i miss my life bef0re....please give me th0se time back and i'll treasure it f0rever~the end

th0Se Days

while d0ing n0thing, i decided t0 write...feeling b0red and c0ld...many ideas can appear. n0w i've bec0me addicted t0 bl0gging. i like reading and write. many things we can xpl0re. in dis situati0n..it kind 0f gets me reminded 0f da past. during my childh00d, my sch00l time, my hard time and last but n0t least my happy time. during a kid, i always like t0 'berangan'. i'm usually cepat terpengaruh ngn m0vies s0 everytime after watching any m0vies, i tend t0 c0py their style. c0py what they d0. d0esnt's matter if pe0ple call me c0pycat. i just d0 it bec0z i ad0re it. was dat supp0se t0 be a c0mpliment. i d0n't kn0w if 0thers tink dat its embarassing. t0 me, if s0me0ne f0ll0ws my style, i'd be very happy and pr0ud. i still remember after watching jurassic park. dat time me and my family live in England. i ad0re the lady s0 much dat i decided t0 dress up as her. i als0 did a litlle acting. jumping and running ar0und the h0use like as it was a jungle. turning da s0fas int0 r0cks and trees. making da pill0ws as din0saurs or whats0ever. hahaha. my sister AL0NG kept teasing me. she always d0 bec0z i always d0 weird stuff. but s0metimes she als0 j0ins me. it was fun. s0metimes i miss th0se days. when i tink back, i laugh t0 myself. mmg klaka and kdg2 terase mcm 0rg b0d0. but...wh0 cares. i was a kid. kids are inn0cent rite? MR BEAN als0 became 0ne 0f my fav0urites. all 0f my siblings w0uld take part in dis acting except f0r my y0unger br0ther wh0 d0esn't understand anything yet. he just w0nders ar0und and kcau2 ktrg. we did the MERRY CHRISTMAS scene. dengan penuh semangat, we made fire crackers, m0dified 0ur bedr00m int0 MR BEAN'S bedr00m. anything t0 make it da same. there was always ideas. blh dikatakan my siblings and me sume kreatif....huhu...tapekan puji diri sendiri..hehe. da settle sume, the camera r0lled. tapi tade p0n camera. just simulate. and when da acting finished we w0uld end up tired and fall asleep 0r c0ntinue t0 d0 0ther stuff. but dat was n0t da end. there's still m0re. just waiting f0r its turn. H0W I WISH I C0ULD TURN BACK TIME. BEING AN INNOCENT KID.....the end~

BeauTin0uS

t0day after class and exam, me and my friend tira had a conversati0n ab0ut h0w beautiful 0ur seni0r is. mmg cantek. like a face where u c0uld see it in the japan c0mics. BIG EYES, THIN LIPS, WHITE SKIN. she was everything like dat. me and tira c0uldn't st0p l00king at her while she was teaching. OMG. ALLAH MAHA BESAR. if a girl like me cann0t take my eyes 0f her, d0n't say da men. s0me lucky guy...hehe...neways after dat, we c0ntinue talking b0ut artist inner seas and 0verseas. biasela, kalau p0mpuan bercerita, akan meleret sampai t0pik nth pape nth. huhu.....first we talked b0ut da white pe0ple. americans and british. NICOLE KIDMAN, CAMERON DIAZ, MONICA BELLUCI nd etc. S0 many beautys. tatau nk sebut yg mane. sexy eyes, sexy lips, h0t b0dy....w0w. i'm like a lesbian..hahaha...then we went 0n b0ut hindustan plak. PREITY ZINTA was 0ur first ch0ice. then JUHI CHAWLA, SONALI, RANI, AISHWARYA. kutuk megutuk dan puji memuji. mexic0ns plak.....SCARLET 0RTEZ annndddd........tu jela yg ingat name. hehe..lasty...da arabians. as beuatiful as....nthla...tatau nk ckp.sume sgtla cantek..i used t0 like this singer name NAWAL. but she wasn't dat fam0us. pe0ple kn0w PASCHAL m0re. s0metimes i w0nder. where d0 they get their faces? h0w did they end up like dat? fr0m ADAM and HAWA, t0 many races and differnt c0l0urs. sgtla unik bile dipk blk. if i die, i w0uld like t0 see h0w dis happen. fr0m 0ur ancest0rs until n0w. t0 th0se wh0 granted with beauty pls be grateful bec0z anytime ALLAH can take them away. BEAUTY IS MORTAL~the end

BuaH BeLimBing SaRawak

ini adalah buah yg dipanggil buah belimbing f0r da sarawakians.taste like buah rambai but i d0n't even kn0w what a rambai is...hahaha...t0 me it just taste like buah langsat but less tastier.i prefer langsat m0re.it l00ks like strawberry but bigger.and we cann0t it da skin.its da first time i ever seen dis kind 0f fruit.if datng sarawak, pls try =)

dissap0inted

a call and a text just t0 ask f0r a letter f0rmat...hrrmmmm..=(

mY ArT w0Rk

dis pic kt ats ade makne tersendiri.so many smpai xlarat nk tulis.dats y just lukis.i'm n0t an artist but just learning t0 d0 a little art.hehe...

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