aN uNexPecteD texT

yesterday i got a text from a very known person, a person dat i never expected to text me again after all dat we've been through. he ask me to meet him which i know is not rite since we're not even talking rite now. why now?and why all of a sudden?is he using me or is he really sincere to meet his old fren or wat so called his ex. i had my doubts so i decided not to meet him. my heart is dying to meet him but when i thought back and the words he said to me....naaah...i'm done and it's over. i know him....after 6 six years of friendship...i hope i can survive and win the battle between my own heart~the end

to win someone's heart back takes wisdom and courage

mine was gone when i did that

KesiAN mY SiS

yesterday my sis went for an operation. at first i didnt thought it would be dat serius but it is. she had to went through an open surgery from doing the laser thingy. she has this thing wat we call endomethrosis. quite severe but i didnt excpect her to have it. but at least she's alrite. dat's wats important....DONT WORRY ALONG.....we will ALWAYS BE THERE =)

So CaLLEd FreN

i just had to spill out wat i felt.....cannot take it anymore...6 years of being a fren...nothing....ur not worth it to her....she's just using u and pretending to be innocent...looking like i'm the bad girl here. i don't understand. are boys so much important to her in her life...i mean of cozla they're charming but doesn't a frenship mean nothing to u. when u hav no one, u come crawling to the ladies fren...but if there's a guy, POOOF....of she goes. it's not the first time she does dat. i think it's the 5TH time but during the first time, i didn't care so much....becoz i didn't know her yet back then. NOW I KNOW. so irritating. the GEDIKS dat she shows to men without relizing...i'm not the only one who says dis...even the guys says dis...so wat i think is definitely TRUE. but the weird thing is, she can say to other gurls.....EEEEEE.....GEDIKNYE....without relizing herself...i'm sory i hav to say dis but i think u should know...dats wat frens are. she looks like she is tough and 'ganas'...with her eyes like an animal staring at their prey...always like to jeling at people showing her eyes....and then people will go....nape ko jeling aku...and then she would like it....of cozla...attracting men's attraction. GROSS. come onla...it's not only about guys here...is dat wat she only thinks about....no wonder la my other fren decided not to become her fren anymore...its becoz of dis...before they were like twins who would go anywhere together but all of a sudden, their relationship vanish. at first i thought it was becoz of my enemy fren but it's all becoz of herself. now people call her the PLAYGIRL...everywhere she goes, a man would be there waiting...maybe she's lucky to hav sooooo many guys adoring her becoz of her sweetness, comel die, perangai manje die but she must remember....guys like her for a reason and in the end...she'll might deserve wat she did to other people...especially her BF ~the end

ReDempTion

dear bloggie...today, at dis moment i'm feeling really sad...all of a sudden...i felt like i've done the worst mistakes ever in my life...i hav so many secrets in my life dat i can't tell....dis is how my life was and is still are...i didnt mean for dis things to happen...it just did...and i can't turn back...the only thing dat i can do now is never repeat it...INSAF...some things can't be avoided..some things can...we just hav to hav the guts to do it....with the help of others around us...and the most important thing is ourselves. we hav to learn from other people's mistakes....people were not born to be MAKSUM...but it is not an excuse to do mistakes....we may walk on the wrong path but one day, we must realize dat we hav to walk back on the correct path...our lives on this earth is not forever....at any time, the clock is ticking...we may not know when we will be going but we must prepare ourselves at all time....i hope dat my talk of redemption is for real....i really mean it but i just need time~the end

At LaST

at last....i finished my FHT...after 7 month of hell....it was a tough one going through all the things pouring and draning on my face...i get to feel a little freedom after my exam....going out in the middle of the nite (curi2 jgk), didnt hav to prep, didnt hav to rollcall and especially didnt hav to THINK....so far the 0ne week was enough to release my tension all dis while...although dat before the exam i had to face wif big problems dat occcured here n there...fuuuuhhhh..RELIEF. i hope dis will last long enough for me to really experience the freedom life...i do envy the outsiders. didnt hav to bother about wat people think, didnt hav to take part in anything, didnt hav to be social and the most important part....DIDNT HAV TO BODEK2. bodek has become a culture now in human's life to gain something, to become a part of something big...less work but much talking....dats all wat they did....i hate those kind of people...pity them who has work really hard but no one was to keen to see them. they only see the ACTOR.....dats y i dont get human...terkeluar topik pulak....anyway..after dis, i'll be posting out from my previous squadron dat i dont enjoy so much staying...not dat i hate it but i didnt seem to fit in.it was nvr a place for me. i want to be at home...six years of living someplace else...i think it's finally the time for me to be at my home..ALLAH...please place me in the right place where i can find my life and be in the correct path...AMIN~the end

LiVing Like aLmost To HeLL

i hate it here....i wana go home....ari2 tension....seeing my frens getting scolded...hearing unappropriate language....aaarrghhhh...it really gives me the headache...cant i get a peace and quiet surrounding over here.....people do hav a life okey...dont treat us like we're kindergartens....i mean kids also get treated nicely....we're 24 for heaven's sake. i don't understand why dis world exist wif dis kind of people....TOTALLY UNREASONABLE.....tink they're always rite....cannot see others live peacefully n hepily...am i gona spend my lifetime like dis...i reaaly dont want it =(

MaHer ZaiN

now i'm totally in love wif dis new singer...i mean i love his song...the 1st song i got attracted was 'ALWAYS BE THERE'......it was a hit...it caught my soul...so sweet and meaningful...when i was d0wn, dis song was able to make me strong....stand up f0r myself...bec0z it taught me to love wat we're suppose to love...how i know dis s0ng?it was a wake up call f0r my sister...she used it as her alarm and ape lagi...when i heard it, i kept repeating it over and over
again...bestnyeee......he's coming to malaysia...i wana go but tatau blh ke tak..hrp2 blh...amin~