Suatu Kehilangan

yesterday....the day dat i will never f0rget. the day 0f tragic. the day 0f sadness. the day 0f 0ur l0st. a bel0ved instruct0r. wh0 taught us fr0m zer0 t0 having a career. a pil0t. he was a man 0f h0nor and respect. he was like a father t0 us. wh0 was always with us. thr0ugh happy and sadness. a teacher. wh0 taught us everthing dat we had t0 kn0w. a br0ther. wh0 was always there t0 talk t0 us and share experiences. i still remember back in al0r star, he was always hanging ar0und with my c0ursemate. in a place what we called bfs. nescafe ice...he w0uld say after each s0rtie. i als0 remember h0w he always said ab0ut h0w he wanted t0 die. die in a unif0rm. die in a respective way. and Allah fulfill his wish. but we didn't aspect dat it w0uld be dis s00n. he als0 said dat after he c0mpleted 0ur course in flying, he will finish his duty. and it's true. we g0t 0ur wings and we l0st him. we didn't even get t0 say thanks and g00dbye t0 y0u sir. its been 3 weeks since we the transp0rt pil0t didn't see y0u....:(. if 0nly we were in al0r star and didn't c0me yet t0 kuching...we c0uld see him f0r the last time. until n0w, i still cann0t accept the fact dat he's n0t in dis w0rld anym0re. lets all sedekah al-fatihah. sem0ga r0hnya diberkati dan dirahmati Allah. amin. he left dis w0rld with a wife and 3 childrens. and all 0f them are still little. the y0ungest. wh0 was 0nly b0rn last year. kesian betul dkt dorg. i h0pe dat they can carry 0n with their lives and s0meday kn0w what a great and caring father they had. MEJ MOHD ZULRIHAN BIN JUSOH RMAF. a name dat will always be remembered in the diary 0f c0use 70. the gryph0n. when thinking 0f y0ur name, tears roll d0wn my cheek. Thank y0u sir. f0r helping us get 0ur wing and f0r really understanding the life 0f CSE 70.

n0t my lucky day

two days ag0, my daily r0utine was a disaster. everything was kelam kabut. fr0m the day i w0ke up until i slept. the day start with PTU parade. ab0ut 1 h0ur we wait f0r the arrival 0f 0ur PTU. sakit tapak kaki. pkai heels kan. huhu. the parade went well. the practice was a disaster but the d-day was a blast. it ussualy w0rks dat way. after the parade we had nasi lemak and teh tarik. the teh tarik was a kick. yum yum. then after the inspecti0n and everything, we went back h0me t0 0ur mess. i dr0ve a car back with 2 instructors 0n b0ard and a friend. i dr0ve as sm00thly as i can. but....xmenjadi. bile nk parkingje. telajak sampai b0rder parking. jatuh keta ke dpn. hampeh dan memalukan. dahla mati enjin 2 kali. huhu. but dats n0t all. more embarrassing. i reverse my car s0 fast dat i hit the temb0k. ramai gile 0rg kt situ. malu gile. i hit and run. the weird thing is, we just laugh. hahahaha...what an experience. and then the wh0le day rain. and dat day, pe0ple were talking ab0ut my incident...end 0f st0ry.

rumah urut

yesterday i went f0r a massage. 0ur b0ss decided t0 take us there f0r 0ur relaxati0n since we've been w0rking the wh0le week. he t00k us t0 a place called TIENJANG. it was my sec0nd time experience. bef0re i went t0 a b0dy massage spa. c0mpared t0 yesterday, i think body spa massage is m0re fun. n0t fun exactly but 'best'. when we arrived, the first thing we did was f00t massage. all 0f us 5 ladies in 0ne r00m. treat myself with a cup 0f mil0. and watched 'slumd0g' f0r the 3rd time while being massaged. massaging is n0t dat all relaxing but painful. they will prss 0ur feet kt urat2 tertentu. sakit!!!! nk jerit tp tahanje. but the pain didn't last l0ng. lame2 jd best. 0ur massage was ab0ut 0ne h0ur. then we went t0 a sec0nd phase. b0dy massage. they t00k me t0 a r00m. JAPAN STYLE. with n0thing but music. i changed my clothes and put 0n a pajama kind 0f type. then, my massaging start. ouuwwwww.........mcm nk mati. yang paling sakit masa die urut leher. ntah urat ape ntah die picit. sakit gile. the weird thing is, i just let her d0 it. STUPID. while massaging, ayah tbe2 k0l. huhu. bgtaula th massage. hehe. the best part is the head massage. release cket tensi0n. 0ne h0ur past and the massage finish. yeay. i didn't want t0 g0 at first. SERVICE REQUIREMENT. i hate dat w0rd. lps abs ktrg p0n blk. i was hungry but they didn't take us t0 any restaurant. terus blk. xsp0rting lgsg. but i was able t0 0der mcd. hehe. and i slept with a full st0mach.

Just An0ther Day

t0day, i'm starting t0 get use t0 where i'm staying n0w. KUCHING. but still, i miss h0me...and als0 al0r star. 5 years there sure left me with l0ts 0f memories. g00d and bad. and a week at h0me was fun. da lme xrs cmtu. but during the weekends at h0me, i wasted my time sleeping and lepaking at the s0fa in the hallway. rugi betul...:(. xchitchat p0n ngn al0ng. da lme x xb0rak sme2. th0se were mem0ries during 0ur childho0d. sblm td0 mesti sembang. ntah sembang ape ntah tp mesti ade t0pik. and 0ur main t0pic is kutuk 0rg...hahaha....biasela. POMPUAN. tp mmg fun ckp psl 0rg. hehe. anyway, sambung blk t0pik. my life here is just the same. xde beza pn. still a student. sometime i als0 want t0 feel living in a place 0f freed0m. n0t just being control by rules and regulations. letih tau. padan muke. sape soh i cap jari. t0day we did a little cleanup. cleared 0ur w0rking place and 0ur mess. but my r00m is a mess. aaarrghhh.....need t0 call marry p0ppins. just a click 0f a finger, everything will be in its place...xdela sepah sgt tp brg penuh. xtau nk sumbat mne da. a l0t 0f my stuff i left behind back at my h0me. yela, ingtkn xnk gune. kan da kne bli baru. dahla, t0wel yg baru br bli asik tercabut je bulu-bulu die. tensi0n btl. when i arrive here, i didn't l0ok in da mirr0r 4 ab0ut a week. just used the wind0w. left my IKEA mirr0r behind. nti nk s0h ayah bwk. hehe. sejak ddk cni, i think i ate a l0t. bef0re i als0 ate a l0t but dis time i didn't miss any c0urse. like bef0re i will skip lunch and dinner but ate supper.n0w, i will hav them all. hehe..blhla jd gemuk cket. i want t0 gain weight.I NEED TO. the f00d here is nice but very hard t0 find yang HALAL. silap2 mkn biawak. the pe0ple.....quite friendly. they're really sup0rtive and easy t0 talk. nice!!i h0pe i will like dis place but i d0n't want t0 stay here long...:)

first 0rientati0n

today was our first day of orientation. after one week of delay...rugije..klau x msti da abs. anyway, during our orientation, we were asked about the communitee's name and etc. we could answer quite good. very empressing. only minor-minor things. while answering, we had to drink water. we manage t0 answer a l0t. dat nite, alm0st 18 glass 0r plus 0f water went d0wn 0ur thr0uts. and a tin 0f mil0. fuh..my st0mach was full. i drank and drank until suddenly, blueekkkk. 0ut they g0. my st0mach was s0 full dat i c0uldn't take an0ther zip. but like it 0r n0t, i had t0 finish the water. after i v0mmit, my others friends continued f0llowing me. hehe. biasela. klau kte npk org muntah yg len p0n akan turut muntah. the 0rientati0n finished after we all c0mpleted the traditi0n. i went back h0me and t00k a sh0wer. FREAKING C0LD. nasib baek ade air panas. lps tu, i 0pened up my lapt0p and as usual surve the internet bef0re preparing t0 sleep. but, that nite i c0uldn't sleep s0undly. because every 3 minutes, i had t0 g0 t9 the t0ilet. hehe....:).gudnite.